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Post by Jinx on Jul 4, 2022 23:38:45 GMT
- Why do we continue this dance ? -
Regret had been gnawing at his belly for the last moon. Crowthroat had found himself sulking in the marsh since sundown, not quite noticing that it had dipped behind the mountain's peaks.
He'd been pondering the question of whether to leave DarkClan or not for the last few nights. Tonight appeared to be no different as he gazed at the water's edge. Why continue to allow himself to be pushed around by Ravenstar? She used his feelings for her against him, hadn't she? Manipulated him into raising another tom--a tom she refused to name's son. He loved Magpiekit as if he was his own, but the mystery still remained. Who was his sire? And why did he seem to have no interest in raising his kit? Why would she even allow herself to be in that kind of relationship with someone?
His heart ached at the thought of seeing the small tom leave them. Crowthroat expected Ravenstar to selfishly bend her own rules to allow the air elemental to stay. But alas, there was now an agreement between her and WindClan to send him to be trained there once he was apprenticed.
Magpiekit felt like the only thing still tying him down to DarkClan. His adoptive son would leave him soon, and so would any feelings of obligation. Halfpaw could easily be trained by another cat. Ravenstar wouldn't be losing a deputy, as he held that position in everything but title. She still grasped at the idea that Tawnylight was coming back. He didn't care about the legitimacy of his position, he didn't care about any of it.
He had once wanted to simply be her partner, to be with her wherever she went. What was the point of their charade once Magpiekit was gone? Would she push him aside once again as soon as they no longer needed to play the part of the perfect family? word count, notes, n stuff
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Post by Thorne on Jul 7, 2022 16:19:46 GMT
[nospaces] [attr="class","biggieno"]  [attr="class","textieno"]Another day had come and gone and thankfully it had been a quiet one. She'd been blessed with the chance to spend more time with Magpiekit, not having much on her paws. Any time that she could have with him was precious and she'd vowed not to take it for granted.[break][break]
But was she doing the right thing by spending so much time with him? All she wanted was to have a good, loving relationship with her son. Would he hate her more when she'd be forced to see him off to WindClan because of it? Having had such a prominent maternal figure just...abandon him on WindClan territory, surrounded by strangers? Would it have been better for him if she was distant, not truly having the chance to form a strong bond? Would it hurt less?[break][break]
All eyes were on her as the time grew closer. DarkClan had been unfortunate enough to have seen the birth of not one, but two non-dark kittens this season. If she made an exception for Magpiekit to stay, she'd have to do the same for Brightkit, or any future kits. It was too dangerous to keep them here without the proper training. It was already a pawful enough on Spiderface to maintain a supply of star flower to repel any consumption afflicting their dark elemental apprentices. Trying to train an element they didn't fully understand would be an irrational decision. It put the lives of the wielder and the Clan at stake. That was why she'd implemented the policy in the first place. But now that she had to live it...Ravenstar would give her remaining 7 lives to make something work to let Magpiekit stay.[break][break]
Ravenstar hadn't noticed how far her paws had carried her until the dampness of the marsh had soaked her paws. She glanced around, spotting a familiar black-and-white coat ahead. It was Crowthroat, much to her surprise. And he appeared to be just in as deep of thought as she had been just moments ago. The molly slowly approached, then sat next to him. "Magpiekit was wondering where you went off to earlier. Daisybloom offered to keep him busy before bed." She flicked her ear. "Is something on your mind, old friend?"
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Post by Jinx on Jul 7, 2022 20:14:16 GMT
- Why do we continue this dance ? -
He was pulled from his thoughts as the molly's voice rung in his ears. StarClan, of all the cats to find him sulking on his own, why her? There was once a time where he would have confided in her, told her of the things that troubled his mind. But those days were gone, moons away from where they were today. She spoke of Magpiekit's worries, nodding to himself that he should have said something before leaving. It was the least he could do for him.
'Old friend'...?
The words stung, feeling like the searing heat of a fire elemental's claws. Crowthroat twitched his whiskers in annoyance, looking down at his paws as she sat next to him. There was a part of him that longed to lash out, to tell her that she was the problem that was bothering him.
He opened his mouth to spill the venom that dripped on his tongue, then quickly closed it and shook his head. Would there even be a point to it all? Would Ravenstar finally listen for once and realize that she'd wronged him, that she'd hurt him more than she chose to believe? Even alone, away from the prying eyes in camp, Ravenstar continued the charade of their "friendship". Did she truly think that they were fine?
As he attempted to slow his thoughts, he spun to face her against his better judgement. "You're truly fucking delusional, Ravenstar." He growled. "Are you going to pretend like you care now, 'old friend'?" Crowthroat stood up and lashed his tail as he began to pace.
"I stood by you for moons! I believed in your cause, I followed you when you threw everything behind for this. Over 17 moons of friendship, and yet I'm still just an afterthought to you?" He glared at the coal-coloured molly. "I've worked my ass off tirelessly for moons since Tawnylight disappeared. I've been your second, and yet I've never once crossed your mind."
He stopped pacing and looked into her blue eyes. He'd once been enamored of her, finding comfort in the beauty of her gaze. How deceptive she'd made herself out to be.
"You knew how I felt about you, and you still had the fucking audacity to have me raise another tom's son! He knew what he was getting himself into, yet still chose to abandon the both of you? The least you could have done was just tell me who the hell he was, but you chose to 'respect' him more than me!" He snapped. "The tom who just up and left, and not the one who's shown you unrelenting support all these moons."
Crowthroat looked away. "I just don't understand any of this. I should have never left ShadowClan." emotional damage
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Post by Thorne on Jul 11, 2022 20:35:21 GMT
[nospaces] [attr="class","biggieno"] [attr="class","textieno"]Ravenstar watched Crowthroat's movements, looking as though he had something to say but suddenly changed his mind. She furrowed her brow. "You know you can tell me anything, Crowthroat." As she finished her sentence, he spun to face her, speaking words she'd never expected to hear from his mouth. The fur on the back of her neck ruffled slightly. "Where is this coming from?"[break][break]
It seemed as though he was not finished. She watched him begin to pace around her, continuing to speak with such anger. Ravenstar felt a mounting sense of discomfort as he vented. She kneaded the ground and looked down at her paws as he spoke of his personal feelings, not wanting to say anything that might make things worse. The tom who had "up and left" wasn't real, but how could she tell him the truth?[break][break]
"Crowthroat...you're right. You, of all people, deserve to know the truth and I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner." She frowned. How far would he go if he knew who fathered Magpiekit? In his anger, would he tell the whole valley of her betrayal to DarkClan? To him? Or would he go quietly one last time for her, leaving everything behind as he returned home? She truly hoped he would understand the gravity of his actions upon learning what she'd been doing. If worst came to worse...[break][break]
Ravenstar shook her head. "This has to stay between us, but I understand if you go against my wishes. If not for me, then for Magpiekit's future, please keep this quiet." She looked at the black-and-white tom. "The reason I couldn't...and still cannot say who is Magpiekit's father is that he's a WindClan cat." She said. She'd do everything she could to keep Stormstar's name out of this, to protect him with everything she could. If Crowthroat truly had malicious intent and disclosed this information to the valley, she wanted to spare him the potential reckoning. "That's why Magpiekit doesn't have our element, likely punishment from StarClan for my defiance."[break][break]
"I know that this probably wasn't what you wanted to hear. And I should have told you everything when I asked you to play the role of Magpiekit's father. Please know that everything I did was to protect him and his future." She frowned. And Stormstar's. "If you love him as much as I do, then please keep this between us."
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